What it is family,

Just like the subject of this email is written, that is exactly how I feel right now. 🤭😅 Turns out it's just anger problems all around

from all sides of my family. My Tongan side and my Samoan side. AHAHAHA.

The common themes in my life have been patience and loving thy neighbor. I've been having a hard time not wanting to cuss people out or throw hands at them. Mostly other missionaries. Imagine 💀🤣

My main message for this email is how grateful I am for repentance. It truly is a divine gift. A gift we are able to receive into our lives the more we sincerely use and apply it. EVERY DAY SINCE I HAVE BEEN OUT HERE, I have needed to repent. It truly shows us how amazing and loving our Heavenly Father and Savior, Jesus Christ, is. True repentance allows us to change into the people we were meant to become. Which is more like our Savior. When you know you're in the wrong, just repent right then and there. That's another thing. Repentance isn't something to save only for your prayers in the morning or at night. But at any moment you know it's needed, just do it. 

I can promise you that as you do these things, you will not only feel tons better but also grow to be someone better. You will tend to not think of yourself often, but more of others and what you can do for them. Your love for your neighbor will come naturally instead of something you're trying to force and just go through the motions to do and get it over with.

I invite you to act on the invitation we've been extended by our Prophet Russell M. Nelson for his birthday. Reach out and minister to "the 1". Okay. Yeah fa, love yall. ❤️ 

Woodlands Usoz. 🤟🏽

The Siwila family. 🫶🏽 They always feed us every Sunday.

Me & Angelo (2nd Born Gang Gang lol) playing Mortal Kombat 😅

Bauleni Tingz

Sister Wungz ❤️

Sister Pepa ❤️

1st Zone Conference in da bag 🎒 

Malolelei eku famili ofeina! 

It's been a long day for me catching up with editing projects and Mika dealing with his new ventures. I felt like we needed a hardy dinner to get our minds refocused and refreshed. Making a nice cheese burger for dinner felt like it was the right choice. Thank goodness that we went to the store yesterday after the Temple and picked up a few things. Dang food prices are ridiculously high! Just for the 12 items we got, everything came up to $80. Geez this sucks, but we need to eat. Grabbing the cheap brand items still came up to a high price which is killing my wallet. Anyways, back to our yummy cheese burger meal. I fried the burger then added coby jack cheese. I've already pre sliced the onions, tomatoes and lettuce last night. Once the burger is cooked to my liking, I placed it on the bun that I put mayo, ketchup and mustard on it. Added all the toppings and boom a yummy cheese burger. A delicious and simple meal to make even on a semi hot summer day. Whatever you make for your meals today, I hope it is delicious too. Happy eating everyone!

Woke up this morning hoping to have a better day than yesterday. So far its ok, but it could be better. Mika got up and started his day doing his new job and I slowly made my way to make something for the both of us to eat. Living on a budget has been a big part of my life, but seeing how the inflation is around the nation, its been a bit more of a struggle. That is why I am trying my best, with the limited skills I do have in cooking, to make something good and delicious. Half of the time I am making the same kind of meals since that is what I kind of know how to make. At least I try to mix things up, right? Well today I made country potatoes with spam and eggs skillet style breakfast. Thank goodness that I had some frozen chopped potatoes in the freezer, it makes things a bit easier to have some starch in a meal. After cutting up some spam for some meat and cracked a few eggs into the pan with the potatoes and spam, boom I created a yummy meal. So far it taste good with a few seasoning and ketchup. Mika seems to like it and I made enough that we aren't both starving. hehehe. I hope that you have a wonderful and safe weekend wherever you are. Happy cooking everyone!

Another week has gone by and my mind is focused on my duty today in the Temple. Last day for Mika and I to be part of officiating the 4:30 Endowment session. This time we were able to sit in the back and be the assistance. I do enjoy watching the session when I have to work. Because at times you catch something spiritual that you didn't noticed before. For me this session reminded me of the importance of my covenants to the Lord and why I need to make it a real priority to live my life according to the promise I made to become his disciple but to make it back to Heaven, worthily. As we continue to be the best we can be, obey and follow the commandments, the council of the Holy spirit and God's servants with humility and faith. I know that my life was for nothing, but worth everything to be with my loved ones and God again. This will take time but fervent persistence of the time given to me on this earth. Please do not take your time on this earth for granted. Utilize it for good, healing and peace. It is worth it. Not only to yourself but to your family and others. May we continue to do our best daily to be better individuals and true disciples of Jesus Christ.

Okay, So I wanted to share A little bit of my two dreams that I had in the past month. My first dream that I had about this particular type of event. It was the night before the 20th of June. 

I had a dream about a particular phenomenal event, and this event is about an eclipse. But prior to me seeing this eclipse, I was with two other women. We were trying to go somewhere. I'm not quite sure where it was but it seems like we were in a rush. As we tried to go to this particular destination, I noticed the sky started to get dark, but the two other females kept on walking. We were speed walking to this destination. So, I turned around and I noticed there was an eclipse. It was so beautiful. It was like a sunset view of an eclipse happening. And when I noticed it, I turned around to see if the two other women saw the eclipse and they weren't paying attention. I don't know their names, but I just called out to them in my dream,  and they turned around, that is when they noticed the eclipse and were amazed. It was a very beautiful view. But I had that sense of urgency in my body, in my dream, like something was important, but I didn't know what and why was I so anxious? And Then my dream kind of turn into A variety of weird scenarios that I wasn't quite sure what was happening but it was happening so fast. Then I remember just waking up.

 Than a month later, which is today. July 24th, the night before, which was July 23rd. I had another dream of an eclipse, but in both dreams, when I had seen these eclipse, they turned into lunar eclipse. So now this dream that I had recently last night, I was going somewhere but I noticed my surroundings did not have many people around the city. It just kind of looks like Los Angeles to me. It was in the evening time or it just looked like the sun was setting going into the evening. I noticed there were a few other people around me, but I didn't know who they were. And we all were traveling somewhere. My dream seemed like I'm trying to get somewhere, but I'm not quite sure where I was going. And prior to the evening time, I was going through the city, but it seemed deserted. But I noticed a few just people here and there like walking around town, but they seem very suspicious. Meaning Like they were almost hiding from something. They're out in plain sight but trying to not be seen. I was with another person. A black female. Not quite sure who she was, but she knew who I was. All I remember was that myself and the woman was trying to get somewhere, a hidden place. I did not know exactly where this place was located. But it was a place that not many people know of and so we were trying to get there fast. For a split moment, I realized that I was on top of this really high building. You can see the view of the city. And the city looked together but almost like it's decaying. Like it's been years since any upkeep was done or something almost post apocalyptic. So, when I was on top of this building, I knew that I had to get down to the lower level. But it was just way too high, and I was feeling a little anxious. But I knew if I jump off, I'm gonna die. At the same time something was telling me " You have powers. Just use your powers. You will survive!" And I didn't know what kind of powers I had. So right on the edge of the building, I just kind of sat on the edge and then slowly made my way down. It looked like it was like a 500 or a thousand feet drop or something because it was a long drop. As I was going down, I was going down like as if I'm floating downwards. It was kind of weird and I had to get down from one building to another in order to get to the lower streets. And so I saw this woman that was with me and she had the ability to walk on the walls. She looked like Spider-Man just walking literally on the wall walking down and I just kind of glide and floated down which was kind of weird. As I was doing that, we got to the ground and all of a sudden when we were on the streets, it went from day to night. But then when I looked and turn around to the other side of the building, I notice that the reason why it went from day to night, because there was an eclipse. I was like, oh wow, how cool is that! I was amazed by it. Eventually, when I turned around to see if the woman was still with me, she wasn't. Vanished. Gone. Nobody was around me. I was the only one noticing this event. When the eclipse was in totality, then all of a sudden a went dark as it usually would. But then it turned into a lunar eclipse, like it, literally, turned dark into night and then I saw the stars. Then the moon that was blocking the sun and the moon just kind of lit up like a lunar eclipse, and so it just kind of just transferred from solar to lunar in an instant. I was amazed by this quick change, and it reminded me of my first dream I had a month ago. When I was with the other two, women that we saw the solar eclipse, it also turned into a lunar eclipse. So in this current dtream, I had last night, I for some odd reason started to run, like I had this ability to run super fast. And so I was running to get to wherever I was supposed to go but I felt like I was running too fast. To the point where I was in a whole different state. It's starting to look it's going to be mourning where I was running to. In my view I just saw lots of trees and a body of water. It looks like I was more close to the shore, almost to a point where I felt like I was it Virginia or somewhere in the East Coast. It took me all night to get the other side of the United States. I couldn't find the place that I was looking for, and I knew where it was but at the same time I couldn't find it. Even though I was running and I felt like I was running so far so long that I wasn't quite sure where I was going. As I was looking up at the stars while I was running, in the distance I could see the sun rising. And then, I woke up. 

Not quite sure what all of the this means. These two dreams is kind of weird to me. Having this Sort of Solar and lunar eclipse type of dreams within a month blows my mind. I've never had an eclipse dream before. And so I feel like it's either mean a new beginning or it could be I'm gonna be overlooked or blocked by something or someone. I don't know. And I don'tunderstand it. All I can say is that this is very confusing. Um, Nothing really stands out to me. But having these 2 dreams within a month, I know the Lord is trying to tell me something, but I just don't know what it is.  When I had my first dream, it was a couple days before I was called again, to be in our Young women's presidency. I'm now the second counselor in the young woman's presidency and things was so much in a rush after I got recalled. After that dream a week later, I was trying to plan a young woman's camp, which I really thought it should have been canceled. But The bishop and the new young women's president wanted to go for it. So, she had all these ideas and stuff and it really didn't set well with us counselos. It was really hard to organize it because there was no structure and when we bring it up, she would tell us to do whatever we want to do. But For me, and the first counselor which is Sheila my sister-in-law, we couldn't really organize it, but we did our best. Even though Girls Camp was two weeks ago after, after all that happened, it was a little chaotic. It was very unorganized and many things out of place. The location was a nice place but you have to be prepared for it. We weren't prepared. Um, it was a struggle, a lot of money was put into it, you know, and it was very stressful and it was extremely hot. We went during the hottest time. Every day was 103 degrees even though we were near the beach area at Yuba Lake. But I still did not like it. I could not function but I tried my best. It just felt like everything was just kind of overshadowed with all this. She just made a lot of uncomfortable and dumb mistakes, that for me at that point, I didn't care anymore. I didn't care how my face look. I didn't care how I act. I just went there, I did my thing the best I can to be around the girls. But I know the Bishopric and the young woman's presidency saw and felt my frustration. I didn't hide it because I didn't want to hide it. Even though I was trying to be peaceful, I let them deal with the repercussion of my attitude. Why? Because I was putting myself on the line for an unorganized person, who didn't want to listen or know how to delegate when we're trying to help and did our best to not let this fail, but you know, it turned out okay. But to me, it was a fail. Even though on the next day at church, the girls who spoke in sacrament brought up a lot of my Spiritual activities, since that was the only productive thing they could do besides swimming.

 I feel like the eclipse probably was a reminder of me being overshadowed by a lot of the stupidity from this Presidency. I feel like the second part of the dream is probably what I feel about what my husband is doing now. With this new venture that he's trying his best to make a better life for us. And we're both out of our comfort zone, which it has to do with our finance. And so I feel like this is overshadowing our relationship because of the hardcore focus on understanding this new venture and putting up money. Honestly, we don't have the money, and we're hoping we'll get a good return. So from both of these dreams happening, maybe that's what it means of my scenarios. The new presidency experience and the new venture anxiety. That could be it, or it could be something spiritual. I don't know. So with this long post, hopefully I can re-edit some of these words so make sense as I post it on my blog. I know nobody reads it and I don't care. But I need to jott it down because one way or another, I have to record it since I dont write anymore in my actual journal because of arthritis. And I just have so much to say, but it's so hard to put in words or sometimes it's hard to just explaining it on paper. Well that's the end of my dreams and thoughts.

I hope this makes sense, since this was audio recorded and transcribe through an app. If not oh well.

Everyday or should I say every other day I would try to make something I haven't done but cold dishes to eat. This summer heat has been killing me softly and I trying not to melt during the process of living.  But as I am keeping myself cool, I felt like eating a salad. So I went to the store bought rotini pasta, cherry tomatoes, cucumber, black olives, onions, and bell peppers. I already had Italian dressing, spam, minced garlic and seasoning. I prepped the ingredients by chopping the veggies and spam. Cooke the pasta for 6 minutes on high boil, drain and put in big bow. Add the veggies, Italian dressing and seasoning to taste and boom, pasta salad. It you want details on recipe, you can find any one you want to try online or on youtube. I didn't follow any particular recipe, I just went based on what I like in a pasta salad and put it together. Whatever you like in a salad, create your own dish and make it great. Good luck and happy eating everyone!

 Muli Shani,

We had exchanges this past week and I was with my STL, Sister Alofipo 🇼🇸. Sis was dying with me because I had to lead her in our area, and I still don't know where to go AHAHAHA 😂 Keep eatingggg

Bauleni Sunsets 🙌🏼

Me & Sister Pepa. We live in the same flat and her laugh kills me everytime ahahaha 😂

P-Day Shenanigans 🤪😂

Sister Wungz = my personal photographer 📸 okayyy 😂

Sister Wunganai ❤️ Homegirl always got me laughing. 🇿🇼 

Card games >>> Sports because.... it's too hot out here. "I'm tired of this grandpa." IYKYK 🤣🤣🤣

I've been recovering slowly this week since I've been back from girls camp. My appetite has slowly return but its been hard since I'm always surrounded by the dang heat. Today I was thinking about what I am hungry for. So I thought to myself, "What do I have in my frig?". And then I remembered that I bought smoked sausage and I need to use it. So I quickly chopped some veggies that I had in the frig, fried it with the sausage, minced garlic and seasonings within 5-8 minutes and boom, dinner was ready. Majority of the time, I never know what the meal will turn out but I pray that it will be good since sometimes you are limited with ingredients to use. This meal was yummy with a a bowl or hot white rice or with potatoes. Either or it is delicious with any side dish you feel like eating it with. Well I am hungry and I'm going to eat this meal before it gets cold. okay, happy eating everyone!

When you work at the Temple, you will realize that even on a crappy day like today being super hot. The inside is cool and comfortable. You feel the spirit of the Lord and it will put you into a good mood. This happens to me every week that I go to the Temple. You take the time to sacrifice a portion of your time to be helpful towards those around you. Like greeting patrons when entering the House of the Lord. Helping patrons find where to go to rent clothes or the office to print out family name cards or to find the dressing room. A few times I direct people where to find the Sealing office, the Chapel before the session, and even to the Celestial room. When we as Ordinance workers come for our shift that day, we gather together and have a prayer meeting to set the right tone and spirit before we being our shift. That we are updated with any changes, policies, reminders, trainings and spiritual thought to better help us do our part well every week in the Temple. We want to better serve the patrons and do our best to help in any way in the Lords work in his house. There are many great and wonderful experiences happen in the Temple for the development and spiritual growth for everyone. I am grateful to be part of this great work. It helps me stay faithful, humble, loving and compassionate towards my brethren. I may not be perfect but through Jesus Christ and his glorious work in the Temple, helps me to become perfected in Him through his work and through the atonement. This gospel is not a hard gospel to be in. It is only hard when you make it hard on yourself and in your life. When you let the negative/Satan get into your mind, heart and lives, he will do everything in his power to make sure that you don't like what the gospel can do for you in your life. That is why so many people let other peoples opinions distort or distract what is good in your life, especially the gospel of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter day Saints. Too many people let history, other peoples bad experiences, inaccurate statements and false practices determine what is truth about this church that I belong to which can break a persons testimony of real facts and truth. When people don't do their due diligence of finding real truth through personal and humble prayer, researching through solid real sources, they will find it. But when they set their minds to what they think is true, they wont receive a true revelation from God. Satan will set your heart and mind to what you want to believe and then you will never really know what is right. Jesus Christ does not dwell or teach with contention, that is Satan. So the next time someone is being contentious about religion or things that are good in the Holy Spirit or even in conversation, they have the Spirit of Contention which is point blank period the influence of Satan. That is why I post things about good things that matter to me that can be spiritually uplifting and not degrading. There will be moments where I will post my thoughts and it may come off negative. It is because releasing the negative out of my system and circling back to positivity, is beneficial to the body, mind and soul. To me that is why it is important to post my daily or weekly life journey of things spiritually good on my blog, because it provides something good that could help someone out in the world with Christ centered things to help their lives and have peace. May this post and every other wholesome post of the gospel of Jesus Christ bless you and all who may find it with joy and peace.

This hymn message stood out to me during preparation meeting. It is found on page 309 of the hymn book.

As Sisters in Zion

I was craving manapua but did not have the right type of pork cuts to make char siu. So I had to improvise with what already have, which was shredded pork. I heated the pork on medium heat until it was cooked. Then I added the char siu sauce until the pork was lightly covered and cook it for 3 minutes. Once all of that is done, serve it with rice and garnish it with chopped green onions. It was yummy but I also added a bit of salt for taste. Even when you think it wont be good when you make a new dish from familiar foods, you'll be surprised at the results of it being really tasty. Good luck and happy eating to you!