Y'all this past week was one for the books...

It was the worst week I've ever had on mission, but the most memorable one I will never forget. I cried mostly every day. At the chapel, in the flat, in the area, during all of district council, and on and on and on. Like literal breakdowns and was getting triggered by every and anything that I couldn't stop crying. My eyes were so swollen every day people thought I was sick. Some times, in the AREA, I'd be almost ready to throw hands with my companion. It got to the point where we'd be coming home because I couldn't manage to teach any lessons without breaking down and the Spirit was definitely not there. 

Pretty sure me and my companion broke some kind of record for how many companionship councils you can have in one week. I'm pretty sure I broke some record for how many times a sister missionary (especially a TRAINER) skipped saying prayer before beginning these impromptu companionship councils & NEKK MINUTE starts cussing. 💀💀💀 The gift of repentance truly is the best and much needed in every one's life, every day. Don't take it for granted. It got to the point where we had to involve our Mission President, President Moyo from Zimbabwe, and the whole night had a companionship council with him. 😬 He told me, "Sister Atuaia, you know when you're married, there will be times you won't always get along with your spouse. You have to work it out. Don't you want to get married?" I was all crying ugly and pissed I said, "No, not anymore." 💀 Then he said, "No, I know you do and you will." 🤣 This man really didn't give a ratz what we were telling him, just that we'd be companions still and needed to work things out by being grateful for one another.

All in all, me and my companion really had one helluva week and all the trouble, drama, and hurt came because of me. There was a lot of being chastised, humbled, and apologizing on my end. A lot of asking for forgiveness and truly learning how to be selfless. A lot of honest feelings and thoughts shared between me and my companion that have only helped draw us closer. Sister Bindanda truly is one of a kind and I'll forever be grateful for her. She has taught me a lot and shown me much love and care in her own unique way. She is a POWERFUL missionary who truly does not mess around. 🙏🏽 I love this girl and it's her birthday today so here's to more life for my sis.🎉

All in all, my gratitude for serving a mission grows every day. Without serving a mission, there's no way I could become a better person or know more about the joy, love, and peace the restored gospel of Jesus Christ brings into our lives. I'm forever grateful for our Savior and all He's done for us. I am also grateful to know of my divine identity and seeing people how Heavenly Father sees us. I only have 10 more months to do work and I'm grateful for these hard times, like this past week, that show me how I can become better and love/serve the people around me more, especially my companions.

Love you all. Yeah, fa✌️

Picture captions:

3 - My compa really love taking aesthetic pictures. Here she is in her element 😂

1 - Pouring cement with Richard & Rodgers. Our two bruddahs in Christ that we've been teaching and are on date to be baptized later this month. They are good friends with Martin who we just baptized last week. 😁

5 - Posin with Sister Mary, one of our powerful members from. The Kawama 2nd Branch. She's the best. 🫶🏽

2 - My companion styled my hair, along with another powerful Kawama 2nd Branch Member (Sis.Cecilia). My compa took these pictures and she said, "Yeah, I made you look good with my skills. I'm the best. You're welcome." 💀😂 This girl truly has no filter and is honest as heck. She ain't lying though, thanks sis 🤝🏼

4 - Me with my 2 daughters 🥹🤣 Sis.Ncube & Sis.Bindanda. Living with them is really sumn else. Never a dull moment with them