What happiness to be

beloved; and O, what bliss,

ye gods, to love!

Johann Wolfgang Von Goethe (1749-1832)

It's a nice evening going out with my sisters Nita & Courtney. We rarely go out together, due to Nita's work schedule and plus she don't really have a good experience with my dad and his in laws. Anyways, life goes on and family is family. I'm just glad that she wanted to go out to dinner and spend some time with us. I guess this is the only photo that we have together as sisters. A cherished moment for me and I hope in the future that we may have more moments like this as a family.

Its not too bad living here in Virginia. Meeting the new family, hanging out with my Dad and getting to know my half sister has been pretty cool so far. I guess you can say its been pretty busy for me. Figuring out how my life is going and what I need to do right now. I hope that making this new step will help me out in the long run. Now its time to find a job, get a car, maybe find a place of my own and maybe I could even travel more. We will see what may happen next for me. I'm just glad that I have family near me and I don't have to worry about other peoples drama, for now. 

Here are a few photos so far...

My sweet sister Juanita wrote to me here in Florida. Right now she is living with my a good family who she's a nanny. I'm amazed that she's being a nanny, but we grew up watching and taking care of kids so I know she would be great. She's glad that I'm living there in Virginia, especially all the drama she had to deal with, with my biological father and his family. Well she's hanging in there and I hope to see her since its been forever. Love you sis, I can't to see you soon!! Good luck to you! I miss my family so much!! Home sick!!

This letter from Nita made me home sick and very emotional. She's having a hard time in Virginia. Tons of drama and the weight of the world on her shoulders. Little does she know that I'm going through a ton of crap here. It would be nice if we could be room mates and live together. I know we would be fine together than being alone. I miss her and my family so much. Its like a never ending story for our family to go through crap. I can see why we are head strong in things and trying our best to get through it. I don't know what the man up stairs has in store for us but it really sucks. No offense Lord, but this life sucks for myself and for my family. You must have something big for our family for us to go through this annoying hardships. Praying for a miracle!! I love you sis, everything will be alright. Hang in there and have Faith!!

Traveling has always been my dream thing to do. So I was lucky enough to travel with a Polynesian dance company to Chicago, Illinois. Not only did I travel with them but I also work at Sea World in their Polynesian shows every other evenings. I don't like dancing any Polynesian dances cause it just remind me of back home which I wasn't that great at but did it cause I had no choice. So doing it again has a bitter sweet feeling for me. Hey it's better than nothing and I get to travel, so i shouldn't complain, right? heheh

What a fun trip with great people and awesome food. I didn't go out much since I was only there for a short time, but it was worth exploring what I can. Made a ton of new friends from this experience. I don't want to go back to Florida, but I hope to go to more different places in the near future. So cool!

Staying in Florida for the summer has been quite fun. Hanging out with Mika and getting to know his family, I sometimes forget that I have family here too. Well family I really don't know but will eventually meet one day. So this past week I meet my mother's 2nd cousin from her mothers side. Don't ask me what the connection is, I was just told who he is and the little information on family tree history. My mom told me that her cousin found out that I was here visiting and wanted me to at least visit Disney World. So he got me 4 tickets to go to Epcot. Of course I was taking Mika but also his cousin Ashton and his girlfriend Kelly. Let's just say double dating was fun and worth getting out of the Lake House for once. We went on a few rides, walked a lot and ate a few good snacks along the way. Afterwards we went to CityWalk in downtown Orlando just to check out the scene and maybe go dancing. Everything went well and I had a ton of fun with Mika, Ashton & Kelly. I hope we get to go out more as a group cause it was fun being adult like in a kiddie environment. Disney World was a ton a fun and I would recommend it to whoever wants to visit. This really makes me miss my family more because we've always wanted to go to Disney growing up. One day I hope to enjoy my family's company at Disney Land or World.

Finally I'm here in Orlando and I must say its really nice down here. Humid like Hawaii and very sunny. It's pretty but not like Hawaii pretty. Mika came and picked me up from the airport, well his dad drove him and we sat together in the back of the car just smiling at each other. Well lets just say that Mika could not stop looking at me since we left the airport. heheh. We arrived at the Lake House where Mika and his family is staying. Nice place but felt a bit uneasy. Don't ask me what that means, lets just say it felt odd in a supernatural kind of way. Met the family and they seem pretty chill but not in a good way. More like the kids my age where cool but the grown ups where on the fence. Um how should I put it. They wasn't really happy that I was there visiting during their so called touring or working time. I know that my boyfriend has a musical family but I'm not that type of chick that really cares about what ya'll do as a living, just don't get mixed up with other "outsiders" as they would called people like me and assume that I'm going to do something wrong with their son/brother. Trust me i have better things to worry about than family drama. Been there and seen it all. No thank you, I don't want no part of that. Anyways, it's been fun so far and I'm loving every moment I have with Mika since I'm only visiting him for a week. I'm making every moment count. I'm a happy girl right now.

Okay it's about that time where I should be jumping up for joy and screaming at the top of my lungs, right? Well not really. Why? Cause it's late here in Hawaii and I don't want to wake up the family. I don't feel like dying before I see Mika. I'm leaving in the afternoon and my family is a bit sad that I'm  going to Florida. My mom thinks that I'm never coming back, despite my attitude and trouble actions I've caused during the past 2 years. I don't know if I'll never come back, it's just I want to explore my options out in the mainland. And in order for me to do that I have to leave Hawaii and find whats out there. Truthfully I'm so excited to see Mika that I want to jump on him and hug him so tight that he looses his breath. Anyways, my mom is looking at me funny cause I'm typing like my sister Jaunita, very hard and annoyingly. Sorry Mom! Well goodnight or good morning. 

Every teen wants to get out of school and I was one of them. It's not an easy thing to do but it can be accomplished when you put your mind to it. I'm grateful to my mom and my siblings in their support throughout my life. I wasn't the easiest person to deal with, but I did my best to finish school and live my life to the fullest. I don't know what lies ahead but I hope its a good one. Yippie I graduated and now its time to find myself and join the world. Here I go!!