You know how it is when

it happens, like a search

that's ended. And the 

wonderful relief at having

found someone to go

home and talk to, who

knows you, understands

your work and everything

you're going through.

Dervla Kirwam, b. 1971

It's never an easy thing moving from place to place and staring all over again due to unexpected reasons. So far life has been a roller coaster and it seems like it will never end. I'm really not sure what I need to do because I've been doing so much to change the outcome of living with people. I pray that one day when I'm married and have a bunch of babies, that I have things figured out, cause damn I feel so lost sometimes that I just want to give up. Lord take the wheel cause I'm just over it. I hope there is light at the end of this dark & horrible tunnel! 

Well I'm glad that I have the gospel cause I would of been a horrible tragedy. The missionaries are the biggest joy and blessing in my life. I'm forever thankful that the Lord didn't gave up on me and send these angels into my life. The Lords Light is brightening my soul and I'm finally finding purpose. God is Good.

He's been my best friend for about 4 years now and I've been through a lot with him that he's more precious to me than any other. We've seen the good, bad and the ugly. What friend can say they've seen it all and been through it all with you? Not much, but I know that this interesting guy name Mika made things more fun in my life. Thanks for your friendship and unconditional love you've shown me for these past few years. Please stay safe and enjoy your birthday. Luv ya dude! 

Happy Birthday Mika!

The storm has past and everything has been such a mess and it totally crazy! This morning, I woke up around 6:45am by Jeff's drilling on the boards near my bedroom window. Looking everywhere outside of the house and around our neighborhood, were tons of debris and junk all over the place. So my Dad and I went to look for any stores that may be open so we can get a few things or just to know whats open for any type of emergencies. We were lucky to find that Farm Fresh near us was opened. We got a few things and we came back to the house for breakfast. So far today has been a bit slow, but what do up expect when a hurricane hits your area and nothing else to do. But hey its life and its all good. I'm used to it. Later today I helped clean up our yard and a few neighbors yards of debris. Seeing how things are looking, I hope that it gets better for the next few days. We will see. As for me, I need to be strong and faithful in whats to come. It's never easy to deal with life's obstacles but I know with faith and perseverance anything is possible. Well I'll be signing off right now since I got other things to do. Talk to ya laters.

-Jay E

*My batteries are low and my wire is not working well...ugh I hope I can make it through the day!?!

This is the day when a major hurricane called Isabel came to the coast of North Carolina all the way to Virginia. All the other coast has been evacuated and have been effected by the walls of the hurricane. I'm not scared at all by this devastated weather. Just hoping and praying that nothing goes wrong here at the house. By doing my church work and preparing for the worst, I know that I'll be protected by my beloved Father in Heaven and my Savior, brother and friend, Jesus Christ. With faith and true testimony I know that the Lord will protect me and help me be strong for myself and those around me. This has been difficult to take but this is for the best. But before everything went out, we were all making last minute preparations for any mishaps. Also we had to make sure there is enough supplies for everyone for at least 3-5 days. I got up at 8:10am hearing all the commotion from everyone making food and cleaning up. So I got up and cleaned up my mess, got ready, freshened up and got all my stuff prepared for the hurricane. Everything was boarded up and ready. I was ready to be hit by the storm. I'd made sure I called Mika and my Mom before all communications be lost. I made sure that I ate breakfast which was scrambles eggs and sausage. After that I began to prepare my Sunday school lesson just to let time pass. Now I'm just relaxing as the storm begins to make her pathway her to Virginia. The winds are between 45-60 mph as the news reporter announced it just a few moments ago. I'm glad to have the true gospel in my life. As I pray for protection by myself, I realized that the faith of Mika, my Mom and family back in Hawaii, will keep me strong and protected with the help of the Holy Spirit. As we put our trust in the Lord we can over come obstacles, be protected and guided throughout our lives. Well the winds are picking up right now and I'm going to focus on other things to keep myself busy throughout this storm. I'll fill you in with more scoops later on my boring adventures here in Virginia Beach, VA during hurricane Isabel threat. I love you!

-Jay E

* Power went out around 12am and it last until 12pm the next day.

*Strong wind & rain hit sometime between 8am-10am

*Major effects hit around 3pm-4pm

** I reread my patriarchal blessing to Dad. I hoped he enjoy that as much as I did. May it guide him back to the Lord!

Juanita always find an adventure everywhere that she goes. Living on her own after high school was always her scape goat in dealing with life. So she found a cool job in George Town Tennessee. a rich family that has 5 kids and my sister is a Nanny for the youngest Twins, Liam & Luke. Cute kids but very naughty. They don't listen to my sister cause I guess their upbringing is a spoiled one. Since I've arrived things hasn't been too good for my sister. I've notice that they treated her unkindly and expect her to do the unexpected. She kept her cool and I made sure she did. After the first few days I was there, the twins actually listened to my sister cause I would do what my mom would do, talked to them like adults in a stern tone and voila it worked they behaved. I guess I brought comfort to her cause she's missing home and family. We went to church, visit different parts of Tennessee and fed the Sister Missionaries. I had fun visiting with her, but as always you have to leave and that's something she wasn't looking forward too. She wanted me to stay and live by her, but I had a job and I wasn't too sure if I wanted to start all over again. She understood but I knew that I would see her again. I really enjoyed my visit but life has to go on. I wish you the best of luck sis. Keep pressing forward and keep your faith up. Luv ya...until next time!  

Today is a special day for me and my little half sister Cortney. She's getting baptized today by Bishop Powell. It's an emotional and spiritual kind of day because Cortney made that choice for her self. I didn't force her to be a member, she just watched how I went to church and she got interested about it. So within the past few months she learned about the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints by the wonder Sisters and Elder Missionaries in the Virginia Beach area. Thanks to their loving support for my little sister and taking her to church with me had a great influence in her that made her choose to be baptized. She also had the support from my Dad and her Mom. Thank you Lord for blessing her life and mines through the Holy Spirit. God is Good. I'm going to be a nervous reck when i have to sing. I haven't sing in a long time and I'm not too keen about it but for my little sis I will.What a great day!! Thank you to theBayside Ward for all the love and support in putting this baptism program and refreshments together for us. Much love and aloha to you all!

Oh my goodness I receive 2 letters from Mommy today! I'm a happy girl right now. I love it when my send me letters or emails. i get all giddy inside. She expressed he love for me but also to Mika. Even though we been dating on and off for the past 2 years now, we've learned how to deal with matters civilly. I love that she gave me much needed words of encouragement that hit home for me. So much love and support from an amazing mom. i love you Mommy and I miss you so much. Thank you for these letters of your beautiful writing and love. I'll write to you soon.

"Love makes you everything you want to be."

Stuart & Linda MacFarlane